things that happened this year
- learned to dance
- learned the meaning of organic
- made new friends
- turned my "arch nemesis" into a worthwhile friend
- have successfully lived in my house for a year
- worked over 3400 hours
- met new family
- realized why i hate holidays
- threw my list away
- got 2 dogs
- realized mesquite isn't the place for me
- committed to finding my defining moment
- went to Vegas
- stepped out of my box to do things i never should have been able to do
- went to Florida
- discovered tuaca
- lost everything i valued
- redefined value
- stopped asking and started doing
- felt completely left out
- let a girl move in with me
things i wanted have changed... i guess I'm at the point where I'm like, ok what do i do now? where do i go from here? how do i make this work? I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being the dependable one. I'm tired of being the unfazed one. I'm tired. you think life doesn't beat me down? its kicking my butt. I'm tired of carrying it all. I'm tired of caring when no one else seems to. I'm tired of conforming. i want it back... the love, the peace, the joy i used to have... what happened to it? i find I'm bitter, or more willing to make excuses for mistakes. more willing to make excuses for myself. i find i am less likely to keep up with personal commitments. i want my life back
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